moving to a new home


Hi everyone,

I’m very excited to tell you I’ve moved to a new home.

My new site is called “”. You will be transported there by WordPress. You don’t have to do anything. On the new site there is an about me page that explains it all. Plus I’ll post a “sticky” post for a week or so that will show up on the front page.


It will be easier for me to have everything under one roof.

It will allow me post not only about depression but other parts of my life.

It will you a better idea of who I am overall.

Plus, because it’s a big upgrade I will be able t do so much more with the site.

Looking forward to having you visit me in my new home. Gotta’ go and decorate my new home.

depression not so different from other ailments


(This is being posted to “” as well today. You’ll understand why after you read this post.)

Today I’m walking around with a compression band around my right knee and an ace bandage around my left ankle. Background information here and here. Monday I finally have an appointment with an orthopedic specialist. Boy, I hope I can quit limping. This has been going on for over six months now and I can tell you unequivocably that limping causes a huge problem for one’s entire muscular skeletal system.

But it got me to thinking about depression and how depression is not so different from other ailments. The biggest difference being no on sees your hurting heart. No one sees the invisible bandages.

First of all, I’m not feeling sorry for myself. Continue reading

how do you give back a blessing?

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My husband and I received a very big blessing today. An all-clear medical report for one of our children just today and for the other one a few weeks ago. Before I write anything else,  I want to share with you what Oswald Chambers wrote for his January 6th devotion in My Utmost For His Highest.

“Whenever you get a blessing from God, give it back to Him as a love gift. Take time before God and offer the blessing back to Him in a deliberate act of worship. If you hoard a thing for yourself, it will turn into spiritual dry rot………..God will  never let you hold a spiritual thing for yourself, it has to be given back to Him that He may make it a blessing to others.”

But how? Do I find a way to give back right away today? Do I wait and watch and listen for that prompt from God as to something specific?  How is it even possible to give a blessing back to God?

Some authors suggest an extra financial gift to a needy organization. We have done that in the past as a way of passing on a blessing.

There are times when saying “Thank you, God”, just doesn’t seem enough. For God it probably is but do we always want to do just enough? Aren’t there times we want to do much more?Today is one of those days for me.

I have decided I will be alert for a special prompt these next few days but until then I want to do something today. So here it is.

First of all, would you thank God with me for this blessing we’ve received? I would love to think that the heavens are being inundated with praise. And secondly, as you go about your day, would you be alert to that stranger that might need a prayer? And would you offer one up for them?

Years ago when I was in Brazil, I sat poolside on the roof of our hotel and noticed an unusual bird flying nearby. I was feeling pretty alone that day as my husband was working and no one else was on the roof with me. I kept watching that singular bird and thought how much we were alike. Both of us by ourselves. But soon that bird was joined by a flock of birds and he was no longer alone. Other people showed up on the roof and I was no longer alone.

For some strange reason, I felt God “speaking ” to my heart that day and tell me to pray for those people on the roof. I had never felt the urge to pray for complete strangers before, but I did.( I mean how does one pray for a stranger)? I found it far easier than I would have thought and even today, years later, I often find myself praying for people I don’t know.

And just one last thought. Remember, that prayer you offer up for that stranger today may be the ONLY prayer that has or ever will be prayed over that person. That really puts a different spin on things, doesn’t it? (I’ll be sure to write a post about that soon.) We know that no prayer ever goes unheeded. God hears them all.

Notice that stranger today and let God lead you to the words you will pray. You will both be blessed and thus I will have passed on my blessing to you.

God bless and let me know how it goes.

From January 9t…


From January 9th, Oswald Chambers, “Thou art the God of the early mornings, the God of the late at nights, the God of the mountain peaks, and the God of the sea, but, my God, my soul has further horizons than the early mornings, deeper darkness than the nights of earth, higher peaks than any mountain peaks, greater depths than any sea in nature–Thou Who art the God of all these, be my God. I cannot reach to the heights or to the depths; there are motives I cannot trace, dreams I cannot get at–my God search me out.”

This is a paraphrase that Oswald Chambers created of Psalm 139. One of my all-time favorites. I though it descriptive and kind of -out-of-the box of my favorite devotionals, My Utmost For His Highest.  I hope you like it as much as I do.

8 Reasons to Be Yourself


Like these reasons. Especially like Ghandi’s. Being truly ourselves could be a great New Year’s Resolution.

Originally posted on Therese J. Borchard:


Some of my favorite quotes on why it’s best to be yourself …

Be who you are and say what you feel,
because those who mind don’t matter
and those who matter don’t mind. –Dr. Seuss

I should love to satisfy all, if I possibly can;
but in trying to satisfy all, I may be able to satisfy none …
the best course is to satisfy one’s own conscious and leave
the world to form its own judgment, favorable or otherwise. –Mahatma Gandhi

The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are. –Joseph Campbell

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent. –Eleanor Roosevelt

To be nobody-but-yourself – in a world which is doing its best,
night and day to make you everybody else –
means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight;
and never stop fighting. – e.e. cummings

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what if I’m wrong?


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I just finished reading some posts from a couple of bloggers who are really struggling with depression. I wonder when I write about how well I’ve done for years, do I make them feel even worse? Do I sound smug and condescending? When I was the one who was struggling and I read articles from others who said what I’m saying now, how did that make me feel?

I always told myself my case was unique, that somehow my depression was worse than the case studies that were cited. That my circumstances were worse than theirs. That I had some sort of medical problem. I can remember reading a book called, “Happiness is a Choice” and thinking the authors didn’t have a clue. Who were they to tell me I was part of the problem? That my thinking and behaviors were, if not the only cause, at least part of it.

And yet here I am free from depression. (Remember I didn’t say I never had some bad days, maybe even a week.)  How did I get here? Was it really all the ways I write about in this blog? Or is it just the way it is? Did I somehow magically get here? Will I wake up some morning and realize it was all a fluke and I’m right back in the pit?

I don’t want anyone to feel condemned by my current state of good mental health, but I can look back even as recently as this past year and see how hard I’ve worked.

And it didn’t just happen.

I had to work at a number of issues. I had to learn to let people be responsible for those parts of their life they were responsible for. I had to learn to exert my opinion without qualification. I had to learn to carve out time for myself doing just what I wanted to do. Every time I feel guilty about something I shouldn’t feel guilty about, I’ve learned to remind myself I’m only human.

At the same time, I’ve learned to corral my thoughts, edit my words, slow my pace, etc. But does that mean that everyone who does as I do would beat their own depression? I don’t know. Why does it work for me? And will it always work for me? Am I only spouting theories that I say worked because I am better? Is it all circular thinking?

What is that “X” factor that works for some and not others?

Tonight, I’m letting you in on my “ponderings”. I know my story of recovery is not unique though. I know many others who have battled through their depression and are now healthy and whole.

If you’re following this blog, don’t feel bad if you’re not experiencing good mental health. I have a wonderful husband who completely supports me. I have a lot of good in my life. But just so you know, I have stressors as well.

As 2014 approaches, I still have work to do. I There are some people in my life I need to deal with. (Just need to make a decision about what to do if anything.) There are some situations I’m anticipating to be problematic. And those are the issues I know about.

I didn’t mention the most important part of my recovery, My relationship with God as been the foundation for everything. He has led me on this journey to health with me kicking and screaming all the way. I was pretty content letting the responsibility for my illness lie anywhere but with me.

That’s it. Enough thinking for one night.